A While

Hi all,

I have been going through a really diffficult time lately. Okzy. This is parcially my own fault. I should've listened to everyone when they told me this 56 year old man I learned was a preditor was bad news! I didn't. The whole of my life is being affected. I don't sleep, or when I do I have waking nightmares. During the day, I freak out and jump at every little sound thinking it's that stranger coming after me. If for some reason I am alone in the hous-which is not something that happens too often nowadays-I believe someone will find some way to get inside my home. Never mind the fact I have dogs to protect me. I just don't know anymore. At night, I lay there thinking that I need to erase myself. Not that suicide would solve anything, but I just can't handle this. I feel like I have been sitting here watching someone else go through this horrific experience. None of it seems real! Help!