Hi Guys,
I have not given up on my novel, but no angle I try seems to be working these days. Instead, I have decided to try writing a script. I have never tried to do that before-well not since I was a little kid anyway. Maybe something will come out of this project. I hope so. Wish me luck everyone.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Friday, June 22, 2007
A While
Hi all,
I have been going through a really diffficult time lately. Okzy. This is parcially my own fault. I should've listened to everyone when they told me this 56 year old man I learned was a preditor was bad news! I didn't. The whole of my life is being affected. I don't sleep, or when I do I have waking nightmares. During the day, I freak out and jump at every little sound thinking it's that stranger coming after me. If for some reason I am alone in the hous-which is not something that happens too often nowadays-I believe someone will find some way to get inside my home. Never mind the fact I have dogs to protect me. I just don't know anymore. At night, I lay there thinking that I need to erase myself. Not that suicide would solve anything, but I just can't handle this. I feel like I have been sitting here watching someone else go through this horrific experience. None of it seems real! Help!
I have been going through a really diffficult time lately. Okzy. This is parcially my own fault. I should've listened to everyone when they told me this 56 year old man I learned was a preditor was bad news! I didn't. The whole of my life is being affected. I don't sleep, or when I do I have waking nightmares. During the day, I freak out and jump at every little sound thinking it's that stranger coming after me. If for some reason I am alone in the hous-which is not something that happens too often nowadays-I believe someone will find some way to get inside my home. Never mind the fact I have dogs to protect me. I just don't know anymore. At night, I lay there thinking that I need to erase myself. Not that suicide would solve anything, but I just can't handle this. I feel like I have been sitting here watching someone else go through this horrific experience. None of it seems real! Help!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Writing
Hi guys,
I don't know how I managed it, but I have actually written a descent first few paragraphs. It's weird. When I feel I do not have enough energy to complete any task is when I seem to do the best writing. At least as far churning out ideas goes. My editing definately leaves something to be desired on these days, though. Oh well! This weekend has been relatively quiet. I went on a short date yesterday with another member of the club I joined a while back. You would think meeting all these new people would help improve my writing. Instead it seems to offer more destractions for me. Anyway, I think I am going to try to do some more writing, or maybe take a nap given the fact I did not really sleep last night. Don't you hate it when people get suicidale and keep you up half the night while you cry to calm them. Oh well! such is life. I'll undate more later when my eyes aren't heavier than concrete!
I don't know how I managed it, but I have actually written a descent first few paragraphs. It's weird. When I feel I do not have enough energy to complete any task is when I seem to do the best writing. At least as far churning out ideas goes. My editing definately leaves something to be desired on these days, though. Oh well! This weekend has been relatively quiet. I went on a short date yesterday with another member of the club I joined a while back. You would think meeting all these new people would help improve my writing. Instead it seems to offer more destractions for me. Anyway, I think I am going to try to do some more writing, or maybe take a nap given the fact I did not really sleep last night. Don't you hate it when people get suicidale and keep you up half the night while you cry to calm them. Oh well! such is life. I'll undate more later when my eyes aren't heavier than concrete!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Another Blog
Hi,
Two entries in one day. I must really be confused. I have to wonder why anyone would like me. I act like such a baby! I am so clingy. Someone needs to do away with me. I am requesting no one help me out with this. I am an adults and should not ever ask for help. Thanks for at least reading this.
Two entries in one day. I must really be confused. I have to wonder why anyone would like me. I act like such a baby! I am so clingy. Someone needs to do away with me. I am requesting no one help me out with this. I am an adults and should not ever ask for help. Thanks for at least reading this.
Confused
Hi,
I don't understand people. They claim they are your best friends and will always be there. Then, they fall in love and friendship just flies right out the window. It's no wonder none of my ideas work. How can they when I feel so lousey about everything else going on in my life. For a while things were looking up. And I still have friends. However, I feel that last night someone I considered to be a really good friend dumped a bucket of ice water on me. I am doing something I promised her I would not. Moreover, I swore this friend would not be aware of what I had done. However, maybe I will clue her in. She is probably about to break off our so-called friendship anyway. Why are boyfriends so much more important that friends? I will never understand this. Thanks for reading this post. I know it is quite depressing.
I don't understand people. They claim they are your best friends and will always be there. Then, they fall in love and friendship just flies right out the window. It's no wonder none of my ideas work. How can they when I feel so lousey about everything else going on in my life. For a while things were looking up. And I still have friends. However, I feel that last night someone I considered to be a really good friend dumped a bucket of ice water on me. I am doing something I promised her I would not. Moreover, I swore this friend would not be aware of what I had done. However, maybe I will clue her in. She is probably about to break off our so-called friendship anyway. Why are boyfriends so much more important that friends? I will never understand this. Thanks for reading this post. I know it is quite depressing.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Bored
Hi,
I am feeling so lonely today. I just told a friend to eat me as in chew me up and swollow me. Am I really in this bad a shape? Please help me.
I am feeling so lonely today. I just told a friend to eat me as in chew me up and swollow me. Am I really in this bad a shape? Please help me.
Monday, June 11, 2007
The Idea
Hi all,
I wrote a few paragraphs this morning of my new novel and then shared it with some young adult readers that are on my buddy list. They liked it. One of them even told me they wish more people would go in the direction I am headed. I do agree with her. The kidnapped by predito thing has been done to death, as has the troubled teen bit. I have decided to have these two people that met on-line go on what the girl thinks is a vacation. Instead the girl has been kidnapped and her friends and family must work together to get her out of the situation safely. If this is not orginal, I do not know what is. I am holding my breath, hoping that this idea is workable for more than one chapter. Anyway, time to have lunch and go back to writing.
I wrote a few paragraphs this morning of my new novel and then shared it with some young adult readers that are on my buddy list. They liked it. One of them even told me they wish more people would go in the direction I am headed. I do agree with her. The kidnapped by predito thing has been done to death, as has the troubled teen bit. I have decided to have these two people that met on-line go on what the girl thinks is a vacation. Instead the girl has been kidnapped and her friends and family must work together to get her out of the situation safely. If this is not orginal, I do not know what is. I am holding my breath, hoping that this idea is workable for more than one chapter. Anyway, time to have lunch and go back to writing.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Catching Up With Reality
Hi all,
I can't believe I have not updated in over a month. I suck at this portion of my "career" I guess. As you guys know, when I wrote my last entry six thousand years ago I was tossing around different ideas for a Young Adult novel. Well, late last night it came to me. I've always been told it is best to draw from your own experiences when you write. A short while back, my lack of street smarts get the better of me. Okay. That isn't entirely true. This wasn't my fault. Either way, some preditor found all my personal information. The guy even claims he saw parts of my body I would never show. It turned out that guy is a preditor. He had hooked up some kind of gadget that allowed him to view my web cam even when I did not have it on. What if that happened to someone else, only they did not walk away unharmed. Wouldn't an insident make a great story for young adults?
I can't believe I have not updated in over a month. I suck at this portion of my "career" I guess. As you guys know, when I wrote my last entry six thousand years ago I was tossing around different ideas for a Young Adult novel. Well, late last night it came to me. I've always been told it is best to draw from your own experiences when you write. A short while back, my lack of street smarts get the better of me. Okay. That isn't entirely true. This wasn't my fault. Either way, some preditor found all my personal information. The guy even claims he saw parts of my body I would never show. It turned out that guy is a preditor. He had hooked up some kind of gadget that allowed him to view my web cam even when I did not have it on. What if that happened to someone else, only they did not walk away unharmed. Wouldn't an insident make a great story for young adults?
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